bad day

I'm having a bout of emotional crappiness. It sucks.

I didn't expect to go through the angry portion of my transition from married to single so long after the fact(s). I figured I was through it.

Nope.

The worst part is its dragging me back into all the sad crap. Self-doubt, Self-pity, all the other self-things that can drag you down as well. I want the solution to be talk to friends, meet new people in washington and stop obsessing about yourself! But then I just ask myself "Am I avoiding my underlying problems rather than dealing with them. Or am I just human and dealing with the usual stuff that goes along with the condition?"

The accuser in me wants to wallow alone in the dark (with my ice cream bucket).

The emotional part of me wants to binge on the attention of others.

The reasonable part of me keeps coming to the horrible conclusion that I am in fact, human.

That shouldn't be such a hard thing to deal with, right?

Right?